When you begin to hate someone who previously carried positive weight in your life, the world temporarily turns grey.
Things start to feel skewed and look grotesque.
Nothings seems to make you smile or laugh as before, nothing seems funny.
The world has changed inside of you, is changing inside of you.
You have no control over the darkening or lightening of the shades that the grey blankets over and around your life. You just have to snuggle in this blanket.
You just have to keep yourself enveloped at any cost.
There is nothing else for it.
We had drawn up this road map so grand,
the highlighted route to the ending we planned,
the flutter of cards as they dropped out of hand,
the calling of Gods in dreams we understand;
poor odds follow close, wherever I am,
fleeting as granules of time-whitened sand
fickle and pickled in the spices at hand,
between promise and oneness,
that same ol’ ominous numbness,
parlor tricks performed in a deserted land;
peopled with embodied nothingness,
void of all the sugary fluffiness,
where you are is ever where I am,
when I’m asleep that’s how it stands,
I dig in the deep with my polished hands,
driven mad by a fiendish hologram;
dropped from the attached strings,
to your heart’s working guillotine,
you never came back for me,
left me miserably, deservedly
just as I am.
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I once told you I hoped that you wouldn’t chase,
the path made by my footprints as I ran away,
not to follow my feet as they endlessly tread,
places called “home” in my paranoid head,
yours used to follow my eyes,
darting about the night skies,
you’d trace a pinky down my cheeks,
trails from tears deemed obsolete,
do not follow my confused insanity,
into the cursed forest of ancient trees,
I’d rather you don’t see me as I mindlessly carve,
indecipherable messages into their’ bark,
I‘d rather that you might remember times,
when I still held a more lucid state of mind,
as I was back when I first asked of you
to someday cut me completely loose,
back when my feet could not yet carry through,
with any of the deeds that I still have to do,
do not falter in those old promises now,
you must override your heart, somehow,
you must stifle the desire you to feel,
to follow me into the darkness of Hell,
I’d rather you carry on in the warmth of the sun,
I want you pick up, dust off and carry on,
all these times, your foolish pride,
had you believing that we were solidified,
but it’s time to defy what we feel inside,
just let go and let yourself bleed for a while,
the loss will fade eventually,
same as my footprints into the trees,
at which you will stop any pursuit of me,
and let me self-fulfill this unwell prophecy.
My wrinkled face
is beginning to waste,
limp body, still hung,
on a squeaky clothesline,
that is tightly confined,
beneath a given thumb,
any part attached to me,
repeatedly gone numb,
neurons firing incorrectly,
missed the target,
my brain feels like,
a bowl of old pond-scum,
the day and night,
continue to come,
Hell or high water,
thy will won’t be done.
I have been,
and hearing you…
your every cent or two,
every jerking move,
and yet you prove…
to somehow be,
totally and completely,
shocked to find…
fill up the spaces,
between the lines…
Hello, big guy!
I will be fair,
I won’t deny,
through my grandeur…
appear and seem,
a valiant try…
for your part,
but, then again,
it’s still just,
and really shouldn’t be,
such a novel thing,
that I’m not listening,
after so much,
of the go and touch…
the itchy sting,
see the burning,
behind my eyes,
see the hatred,
please just let me be.
As, so it goes that,
eyes like mine,
the passing time…
are not destined to see.