Originally posted on Americana Injustica:
You wanted it… you just had to get, you begged for it: a piece of me… and then, that was it – I did accept, the invitation sent, maybe ungraciously… I showed up one day, remember? when the skies were grey, guess you hadn’t been, expecting me… but there I…
Originally posted on Americana Injustica:
Would you be, any fonder of me, if I suddenly chose, to start listening? Would you decide, to more deeply confide, the darkness behind, your odd eccentricities? Shall I unbind, this heart of mine, lay it down on your table, where the other parts lie? I suppose you’d prefer, if…
Originally posted on Americana Injustica:
Now I lay me down to sleep again, in the grips of a dread that I slumber within, the same unforgiving and cramped position, wound up mentally and the ratcheting begins, the memories and tragedies flood fatally in, my body won’t sink and my mind only swims, things I regret…
Originally posted on Americana Injustica:
Shitty tattoos,Absent front tooth,Alcohol infused,Jaw flapping,Knuckles rapping,Air leaking through,Big brown eyes,Telling nonstop lies,You’re fucking high,Unclean,Unforeseen,Not enough miles between,That stinky lifestyle,The steaming shitpile,Rusted turnstiles,Nothing worthwhile,I lost too,Much to you,It’s all bled through,The truth,Fire country,Attention hungry,Back full of monkeys,There’s no saving you,You’re too far beyond,Slithering, And talking long,There’s no fixing you,You built…
Originally posted on Mocking Bird Down:
The trappings we drag, for the overnight stay in the damp, dark, cold to the touch; parts of the hell that we personally designed just for moments like these; when the world feels too small for how much we don’t feel.
I somehow must have been switched up in the heavenly information database somehow from an individual human being to a military detachment or something…how could any one of the Gods think I would have been able to handle everything that continuously gets thrown at me from left field? I honestly don’t know if I even think Mother Teresa could have managed without eventually breaking down and saying, “fuck this, and fuck you – all of you…”
Americana Injustica 
I used to feel like this too…until I learned recently that it does no good to complain or brood about it, you just have to shake it off and move on, try to make the best out of the worst. It’s all about attitude…
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I honestly wasn’t meaning to complain…just thinking in ink…thanks for sharing.
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Oh I didn’t mean it that way sorry if I used the wrong words, but I hope you understand 😉
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YEEEAAAAH!
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Funny, I was just reading a book that quoted from Mother Theresa’s personal papers. Apparently she lost God for some years.
I know that you will handle whatever comes your way. You’re wired like me in this. No matter how far or how hard you get knocked you get back up and keep putting one foot in front of the other. There really isn’t any other option, is there? What’s a miracle is that we still love and care despite it all. Sane people give up. Saints keeping getting back up even when they know God isn’t there and keep going even when it’s insane. You’re in the saint category.
That said, I’m instant rebel in a can: just add some stupid Calvinist saying about predestiny and endurance and watch me blow shit up. I don’t care if someone is a certified preacher-person: it is NEVER God’s will for people to suffer and struggle. Ever notice that the people who see God like that tend to cause a lot of suffering and struggling?
Chin up and (hugs).
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You’re awesome. Hugs back acha x
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what a horrible platitude that is! Like everybody wins and nobody dies, like survivors all haven’t by definition had more than they can handle. I always wonder how bullshit is supposed to help anything. It’s like a smoke bomb – “It’s all part of God’s plan” – POOF! I’m gone before you know what hit you.
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Amen to that NS.
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I had this last year. I have no answers for you, people deal in their own ways. I do know that like me you’re a human being and can not only get through it all, but thrive. You are strong ☺
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Hugs to you for that. X
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