Today.

Today I helped my somewhat coherent daughter take her first “shower” in ten days; it was the first time I have seen firsthand – the residual extent of her wounds from being kidnapped and tortured in Arizona…it was horrendous for me; but it was like heaven for her to feel clean.
I shampooed and conditioned her now shorn off hair; I found a deep and permanent divot left in the back of her skull from a hammer blow: a half-dollar sized strawberry colored sphere smack dead in the center of the back of her head. My throat tightened up so badly I began to wonder if I might start to hyperventilate.
All over her shoulders, arms, belly, chest and back are huge burn scars as long as the sword that was used to leave them; her arm has been pinned in three places, she’s been given a tracheotomy as a result of 1) Being forced to drink caustic chemicals; and 2) Having a belt cinched tightly round her neck for almost two days.
At one point, I looked down at the floor and asked what the mess what all about; don’t they have a janitor who comes and sweeps the floors? She said yes there is a janitor, and he never cuts corners on her room – she raised her feet both up in the air across from me and I saw the bottoms of her feet for the first time…I had not been made aware of what they had done to the bottoms of both her feet…my heart just hurt so bad. Her feet were burned the worst of all…they burned the bottoms of her feet into mush. What I was seeing on the floor was simply from her feet shedding skin layers endlessly. I just didn’t even know what to say to that…I didn’t say anything; just rubbed lotion on them for her.
She was laughing, smiling; still somehow trying to glow from underneath the mess on the surface…today was a very emotional day…but she’s coming around we hope.

11 thoughts on “Today.

  1. OMG I can’t believe what I am reading!…I am so sorry it is so hurtful that something like this happen. Sending you both lots of love and strenght in the hope of a great recovery! ❤

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  2. My heart goes out to you both and your family. We are keeping you both in our hearts and prayers, dear Friend. We are hoping for a full recovery and for many many more smiles from her and for you. You are one of the strongest Moms I’ve ever known and you never give up.
    👀 ♥ * ͜ * ♥ 👀

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  3. Jarrod C says:

    Thoughts are with you at this time.

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  4. mandy says:

    I’m so sorry A. My heart hurts so damn bad for the both of you. She’s got you to hold her. I hope you have someone to hold you. If not, let me ((💖))

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  5. Oh, she’s so strong! I cannot even presume to understand what the both you must have gone through, but I pray your days now on will be full of smiles.

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  6. I just ache for you, but I am glad she is letting you help. It is good to hear that she was smiling today- I hope every day is a day she laughs.

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