strung across a radar’s rim,
a sported trophy limb for limb;
with the seed of what’s human,
however, unrecognizable to them;
straddled astride the old confines,
mirroring through space and time;
no changes made to our story-line,
ancient wisdom of the senile mind;
across every galaxy in the sky,
expand the Universe to erase the naked eye;
can’t help but to wonder why,
we encourage each other to wither and die;
the mad dash at being first in line,
flocked together on the doorstep of the divine,
receptive to carbon-based humankind,
an immaculate conception that’s been streamlined .
You've done this thing,
like attaching a string,
from my mind to your heart,
from my mouth to your brain;
You've created this thing,
like a hornet's sting,
from my inner-most thought,
comes a painful tingling;
You've become something,
not quite a human being,
from my unhealed parts,
the blood is running again;
You've turned out to sing,
the song of an old enemy,
from the deepest of want,
for the very same things;
You've proven to swing,
back and forth, in between,
from the history you haunt,
o the throne of a King.
Well, it’s been a while since I had any time or interest in sitting down and repeating the events that have most recently transpired in writing for my blog…my spark to write anything worth reading has all but fizzled out completely. I do, however, feel as if after dumping so very many of my life’s struggles and problems here onto my ever faithful and supportive cyber-family, it’s only right that I put out an updated memo at some point in time.
And, now is the time for one.
My mama is alive and kicking still, somehow…she continues to absolutely defy the odds at every turn of the road we are on. Her PET results were mind boggling Friday morning, to the point where I was in tears, just standing in silent awe with my eyes locked to the screen. The cells are so small that they are not visible to the naked eye at present. My mama has successfully bought herself another chuck of time, Gods willing.
My job is a constant struggle these days for several reasons:
Until Friday, I have been forced to sit next the most annoying and attention-hungry employee at my location.
I have been jaded by the typical dealings with a loathed representative of the Male Persuasion since our falling out a month or so ago.
I have seen various things that have made me hate people even more than I did before.
I am only able to honestly say I can trust TWO people on my team. (no fun)
My daughter is still a vaguely distant stranger to me, and my former stepdad continues to make my bile rise with any and every contact.