Sweat-Stack Prophecy.

After all that’s been said and done or not done,

they actually wonder what’s struck me so dumb,

perhaps I should’ve sent a universal memorandum,

to describe what’s been specified –

by the tribe where I come from;

when the shamans beat their’ drums,

and the forest sighs sweetly, and hums,

beckoning wakefulness to our Oldest Ones,

and as each awakens, a foundation gets shaken –

they can sniff out who doesn’t smell strong;

I only want to defy right here, under the sky –

close my heavy eyes and let it all be finally done;

I look around never to find anyone,

I have grown weary of trying to be strong,

my spirit rebels in a temper tantrum,

don’t chafe my hands, leave me just as I am,

I’m blessed and I’m cursed all in one.

 

 

 

 

Re-inflated.

Apparently, she thought that walking downstairs and meeting “a friend” at the hospital was safe enough.
All I know is that within the hour of her leaving the hospital, her trach cap had been taken away from her and she was unable to speak and barely able to breathe. She spent almost 36 hours away from medical care with a brand new, unsettled tracheotomy that needed attention.
She has returned now; out of sheer necessity of course…and she has further complicated her own condition by allowing the trach to become clogged and dirty. Now they will need to replace the original trach with a new one – another surgery, another gamble with her life.

Sidenotes.

I’m talking with a boyfriend of hers,
he’s one I never liked…
but since she has self-destructed again,
he has fallen to despair,
unsure and confused of the “whys” and “how’s”,
shocked by the daring gamble she lives by,
“Why does she do this?”
“She hates herself underneath her stuck-up front, kid…
life has never given her a reason for anything more.”
sigh
sigh
why?
why?
Why?

We just don’t know.

Comms Check 2.

Boo is in ICU again; she was found last Wednesday unresponsive and alone on the track in Oakland…she went for an unknown amount of time without air to her brain…she is on life support: a breathing machine, feeding tube etc. Her outlook is not good. Things are not good.
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Hum In The Air.

Traveling swiftly,
along in between,
the shuffling feet,
dropping and lifting,
to static frequencies,
over the threshold,
off of the streets,
into the bustling,
and humming,
of a million machines,
fostering,
the very needs,
of broken human beings…
over the sounds,
of the technology,
tubes and dressings,
Hallmark blessings,
I hear her breathing,
ever-steadily,
in the darkness,
over the chorus,
of the ticks, clacks,
hisses and beeps,
she breathes her way,
through the night,
thankfully,
to see another day,
that she’d preferably,
rather not even see,
which is sadly telling,
told by the many injuries,
outside and within,
the broken bones and skin,
all of the gods damned,
technologies and,
cures known to man,
won’t change anything,
the hand,
she’s been given,
the Hell,
that she must live in…
this was once my baby,
and she will,
always be,
worth so much more,
than what she perceives,
as reality,
no hope anymore,
of something in store,
hidden from the sight of me,
I hold my breath in,
unintentionally,
if I fail to register,
rhythmic machines,
over it all,
the patients in the halls,
the button to call…
the sound I faintly hear,
here and there,
along a stream-flow,
of the hospital air,
it’s dull and low,
but a sound I know,
all too well,
it’s the rewound,
haunting sound,
high-pitched,
helium,
voice to the face,
of my baby,
saying things like,
“Mommy please help me.”

The “18 Year Old” is Boo.

Anthony Marroquin, The Republic | azcentral.com Published 3:10 p.m. MT June 24, 2015

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  • Victim told police she was beaten with hammers, had bleach poured on skin
  • Neighbors heard victim’s screams and called police
  • Suspect said someone else abused the woman

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Phoenix police said officers arrested one of the men who was involved in the kidnapping, torture and sexual assault of an 18-year-old Phoenix woman on Tuesday.

Police said the woman was brought to 25-year-old Johnnel Henry Thomas’ apartment near 27th and Northern avenues by another woman. The victim told investigators that Thomas and the other woman beat her with hammers, pressed hot knives/swords against her skin, poured bleach on her skin, and made her drink bleach, according to court records.

The woman told investigators Thomas sexually assaulted her. Police said the woman believed Thomas wanted her to sell drugs for him, according to a police report.

Neighbors heard the victim’s screams for help and called the police, according to officials.

Police say neighbors saw Thomas walk out of his front door naked and that he was still naked when he ran out the back door after police arrived, according to court records.

Officers said the 18-year-old woman had a belt around her neck when police arrived. She also had a broken arm, smashed hand, burns from bleach, bruises all over her body from hammer blows, and multiple burns from having a hot knife/sword pressed against her.

The woman was hospitalized and received treatment for her broken arm and other injuries, police said.

Investigators found two hammers, an empty bleach bottle, multiple knives and a sword during an initial search of the apartment, according to court records.

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Police said Thomas was located at 2:40 a.m. Tuesday in a stolen car near Northern Avenue and Interstate 17. Thomas told police after his arrest that he had sex with the 18-year-old woman. He told officers that another person abused the woman.

Thomas was arrested on suspicion of a series of felonies, including sexual assault, aggravated assault and kidnapping. He was being held without bond and is scheduled to appear in court on June 30, according to court records.